went for a walk in CraigyNos. lovely day for it, greenery and sunshine. Rivers and bridges, like a john lennon album. Why am i doing my life away? why am i so lazy? i tell people i’m lazy but they never seem to agree with me, maybe because they can sense that i don’t want them to agree.

Saw a man and woman, with their dog, sitting on a bench. they were clearly from the midlands. But lived in the area. had a friendly chat. i told them i would b doing a comedy gig in Craig y Nos in dec. he asked ‘ is it in welsh ?’ i said no it’s in english. Then he started on about his neighbour who’d died, she was old, and he was friends with her so out of respect he went to her funeral. ‘I couldn’t understand a word as it was all in welsh’…He said he liked the hymns, but anotehr person came up to him, said ‘ well i’m from wales and i didn’t understand a word’. I didn’t get his point. but didn’t hang around to debate it.

i mean, it’s common to hear non-welsh speakers moan about the language, but i’ve never heard anyone complain about a funeral held in welsh before ! Sounds like the start of a joke. but in fact it’s really quite tragic….’i went into a building in wales, and everyone was speaking welsh….okay so it was a funeral, so what…shouldn’t be allowed’

SG texted me out the blue. He never gives me a gig, ever, and i have problem with that. but didn’t mention it cos i know what he’ll say : ‘don’t take it personally’.

He wanted to know if i did a joke where i refer to the word ‘valleys’ and the word ‘Wales’ , and do a pun on them yes i texted back, i do that one. The insecurity is taking ag rip again. but at least i got some cynghanedd to distract me….