of bad luck this week. various things seem to be slowly going wrong. i mean there’s the usual lack of gigs, cancelled gigs etc….i mean i’m doing ok, but there’s still that inevitable feeling that things are slowly grinding to a halt.

We finished the radio quiz for welsh learners, and it seemed to go ok, but then the next day the co-host apparently was unhappy with how i spoke to her, or didn’t speak to her, and never wants to work with me again. depressing. coupled with that is the constant friction between me and my girlfriend. it’s as if i’m slowly getting ground down myself.

Then, there’s this lack of comms from a welsh booker who agreed one thing but now seems to be changing the parameters of that agreement. it’s sometimes referred to as ‘widening the goal posts’.

i’m in danger of getting moody, of sulking like a bad tempered kid. people say you got to grow up in life…i mean yes if you know how to do it. what is ‘growing up’? is it related to throwing up? growing up sounds like a good thing to do. maybe i should just leave all the pain of the comedy scene. leave it behind me – that might help me grow up.